Saturday, December 11, 2004

Today the 10th of December is the day Jessica Lee decides to move on with her life properly. Today the 10th of December is the 'anniversary' of the day James broke up with me. Yes it has been 2 months. Funnily enough, the 2nd month passed by a little too slowly for my liking. The first month went by with a bang but the 2nd month was a little slow. I was like its only 2 months? It seems like its ages ago. It seems just like yesterday that I said goodbye to James. But today, I cried for the last time for him and that's it. Life will move on although moving on is hard. Moving on with another person is always hard after being hurt so deeply. I want to commit but sometimes I'm just afraid that I'll be burnt again. I know Ruikun wont hurt me but its just a fear living in me I suppose. A fear that will stay with me for awhile, a fear that will take sometime to go away. But I'm really glad that I can put James down properly. Maybe its too fast, I dont know but I dont want to regret letting him go.

Ok, enough about reflecting.. Onto my life in general..

I have started work for about a week now. Honestly, I dont know why I put myself through this because its damn damn damn boring. Just checking ERS forms daily- name, I/C number and $50. Monotonous work! I so much prefer the work with my previous section BUT its money, I wont complain. Have been going out alot with the same people actually- Daphne, Xiangying, Junior and of course Ruikun. Haha.. Not that I really mind but I still do miss my other friends. I'm so glad that I'll be meeting my trackers tomorrow. I really hope that Simin, Meiyi and Yeongshi will be there. *pretty please*?

Oh well, Daphne will kill me for not posting pictures but I cant be bothered. Haha.. too troublesome..
*hugs and kisses*



Jessica WhIsPeReD OuT @ 1:11 am


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